I really like jordan but im afraid to get close to him. He is the first guy that i really like. When im with him its like every bad thing goes away and that together we can solve anything. We can just watch movies and cuddle and everything is perfect. I love spending time with him even if it is just to run to the store or to run to the gas station. I dunno what it is about me that won't let myself get close to him but i sure hope i can get over this fear............ i don't want to lose him over a stupid fear that i have. He is so perfect, everytime we hangout i find out more and more about him and still there is nothing i don't like. I love everything about him and his life, for example his mom is soooo sweet and funny and his step dad is soo nice.

i dunno i just really hope this works out. i really like this boi......yeah i know i have said that about gavin and ricky but i seriously think jordan is the best boyfriend i have ever had lol. he is soo sweet and caring and would do anything for me just as i would do anything for him. he is understanding and is everything i could ever ask for.

my heart has been broken once before and he will always have a piece of my heart but its time that i move on and let myself be happy again. I need to let myself let him in and share things with him...... i just wish it was easier said than done....